“I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of
the Lord in the land of the living. Wait
for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27: 13-14
A lesson I’m learning whether I wanted to or not. I’m tired of waiting! Nothing in this world is in my control,
nothing at all, and I’m learning this lesson more strongly than anything else
right now. We can try to force God’s
hand in certain things (not that it really ever works). We can be convinced we found “the one” and
get married, get a job, etc, but if it’s not God’s plan, it won’t be the best. Then there are things that yes we should pray
about but we have more than one “good” option-things like where to live, which
house to buy, how to spend our money.
And then there are things like having a baby, a person giving their life
to follow Christ, and our health that we have absolutely no control over. We can pray and hope and cry and plea but no
matter what we do or what we want, it’s all up to God (whether we believe or
not). And that’s just plain hard. Making choices is hard for me. Having no choice is harder. There are things that I get down on my knees
and pray for, things I’ve prayed for for years, things that I’ve grieved over,
and still they do not happen. Like I
said, I’m tired of waiting. But what
choice do I have? Even through all of
this, I cannot imagine not having a God to trust in. He hasn’t listened to me, and as hard as it
is, he doesn’t have to, but if I didn’t have him, there are things in life that
would be unbearable.
He tells us to be confident that we WILL see the goodness in
the land of the living. With God, there
is goodness in this world; we don’t have to wait for heaven to see it. We are just told to wait, be strong, and take
heart.
