Back to the Present

I have such a hard time focusing on the present.  I always find myself longing for the future or reminiscing about the past.  Rarely do I enjoy the stage of life that I'm in while I'm in it.  The other day I was telling Matt that "I can't wait to start living life with him".  What I meant is that I can't wait to buy a house, to get a job, to have children, to grow old together...I meant that I can't wait for the future.

It's true that the future will be lovely and exciting and oh so worth it, but this time in my life will be gone before I know it.  One day we will have kids and talk about "the good old days."  Matt told me that we will tell our kids about "the house on 4th St." The very idea brought tears to my eyes.  We will tell our kids stories about our past.  We will look back on these days and long for the time we had together.

Today is a gift from God.  God has a purpose for us each day.  We might not see it for a long time, we might not ever see it, but that doesn't mean that its not there.  Instead of worrying about tomorrow or what we did in the past, what if we simply praised God now?  What if we could see the hurting people all around us that need our help now?  What if we shared the hope of Jesus with even just one person now, instead of waiting until tomorrow (or hoping someone else will do it)?

God's plan is holy and perfect.  I just need to stop worrying about what I'm doing right and wrong and focus on what God can do today.